As so I start a new fucking year
Jan. 3rd, 2006 07:17 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jstmealwaysWhat a crock of shit! I thought finally that things were falling into place, but once again I get comfortable in my life and find my little groove in life things get all torn to hell.
I am so mad that I allowed myself to get screwed over once again. I can be so DUMB at times, it makes me so mad at myself. I am going to start the job search and take it a little more seriously than I would if I was still freakin employed.
On a more positive note, I have found the teenager in me again. I twice now have stayed up all night long talking to someone, someone who makes me laugh and well.. makes me forget about everything that is going on around me. I wish that I had some hope that this person would be a permanent fixture in my life. It would be nice, but I doubt it. Especially since I really enjoy the conversation and company in a way.
Ahh.. rambling..
I am so mad that I allowed myself to get screwed over once again. I can be so DUMB at times, it makes me so mad at myself. I am going to start the job search and take it a little more seriously than I would if I was still freakin employed.
On a more positive note, I have found the teenager in me again. I twice now have stayed up all night long talking to someone, someone who makes me laugh and well.. makes me forget about everything that is going on around me. I wish that I had some hope that this person would be a permanent fixture in my life. It would be nice, but I doubt it. Especially since I really enjoy the conversation and company in a way.
Ahh.. rambling..