Choices and Decisions
Dec. 30th, 2005 11:56 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jstmealwaysHonestly amazing how much changes in such short periods of time. How many things can cross your plate! Whirlwind of emotions and trying to make heads and tails of all of the thoughts going through my mind. In several ways I feel connected to a couple of people but not sure where to take these thoughts/feelings. I have had my fair share of people comming in and gracing my life and moving on just as quickly as they have come into it. There are a few people that have come into my life recently that I really can see myself caring for. Trying to decide what is the best path for me to follow. I never thought that it would be this hard to make a move in my life. I want so badly to make the right decision, to move on forward with my life.
My heart has mended from the past I have been able to move past those things that have been haunting me for so long making me be someone that I am not. I finally feel free from all of my problems and all of the things that I have gone through. I have done a lot of damage to lots of people in the past. I have been trying to make things right with people. I have come to find out that it is much harder than I thought that it would be, however this is something that I need to do for myself. Something that I need to do to complete the cycle of walking through my past and moving onto the future.
Maybe I am just at the point where I am to try new things, really get to know someone before I take that next step. To move slow. I always seem to jump head first into everything. Hell, I am rambling.. and really tired for once..
My heart has mended from the past I have been able to move past those things that have been haunting me for so long making me be someone that I am not. I finally feel free from all of my problems and all of the things that I have gone through. I have done a lot of damage to lots of people in the past. I have been trying to make things right with people. I have come to find out that it is much harder than I thought that it would be, however this is something that I need to do for myself. Something that I need to do to complete the cycle of walking through my past and moving onto the future.
Maybe I am just at the point where I am to try new things, really get to know someone before I take that next step. To move slow. I always seem to jump head first into everything. Hell, I am rambling.. and really tired for once..