out from behind the shadows

I recently made my journal a friends only.. however.. well.. I dont feel as if I should have to hide behind anything.. nothing.. there is nothing that I have to say here that I should have to hide behind. These are my thoughts and I suppose you must read them as just that.. thoughts.. words... feelings... this is me.. and the only me I know.

I have this "crush" on a guy at work.. the past couple of days I have been giving him a ride to and from work. He knows how I feel and has responded.. in a way.. I dunna.. we shall see what happens from here on out. Hell, it may just be a little girly crush.. or it could lead into something more. I dunna.. one day at a time.

Life is good, yes, really it is. My headaches are gone.. the anxiety has been closeted due to the taking of meds .. thank goodness they got those squared away. Although, my doc thinks that it may be more than just anxiety.. with a bunch of the problems I have had currently and looking at past blood work and such.. the rise in my blood pressure.. the inablilty to loose weight... the hormone fluxuations (sp?) he thinks that it may be an insulin resistance problem ... which is to my understanding adult onset diabetes.. but.. I need to have more blood work done to prove or disprove this theroy.. so.. the waiting game is being played.

Need to read.. classes start in three weeks.. *ugh*